A Little Voice..From Deep Within..Chimes Incessantly..About past,present,future...
Thursday, September 19, 2013
Thursday, August 29, 2013
Suyodhana Uvacha - II
I remember,
clearly, of those Gurukul days. Days of playful abandon –of running about the
lush green forest meadows, of climbing the trees in Guru’s orchard, of swimming
in the cool waters of the brook, of fighting and learning. Mostly of striving
to excel in studies so that Guru would pat on our back affectionately
murmuring, “Good work my boy, good work!”
Guru Drona was smitten by Arjuna, by
his skills with bow and arrows. Arjuna’s fingers were magical, they could coax
any arrow to find it’s mark and his sense of timing was unparalleled.
Grudgingly, I accept, I was in awe and secretly disappointed by the absence of
one like him on our side.Arjuna, for all his faults, is a
spectacle to watch when he stands poised with his strung bow, ready to pluck
the arrow – exuding raw power yet with the grace of a dancer. He shone like a
diamond, like a star, above all of us!
When Guru Drona arranged for a
graduation ceremony it was more of a martial exhibition rather than a
competition between the princes. Needless to say Arjuna turned out to be the
star pupil. I can still remember Kunti Ma, covered in the white of widowhood, her eyes sparkling with unspoken pride.Oh well, the rest of us mortals had to
be satisfied with obligatory claps and cheers from the crowd. As for me, I was
over joyed. I had defeated Bhima in the mace duel. It might have been an a
friendly match, but for me it was far from friendly. I am sure, for once, Bhima
and I felt the same about something. I had vanquished Vrikodhara – the wolf bellied one.
Period. Between, I gave that name, Vrikodhara, to Bhima in loving memory of his
insatiable hunger. No, I have no qualms about it – Vrikodhara that he is!
Arjuna had finished dazzling the crowds
with his unmatched skills at archery. A mesmerized crowd was still murmuring
adulations when through the western gates of the Royal Arena a chariot entered.
In the chariot stood a handsome young man adorned in simple white cotton and bright
golden armor. For a moment passing clouds overcast the sky but the arena was
lit by a glow – bright rays emanated from the young man’s radiant earrings.
There he was, a radiant sun, right in the middle of the ground, burning in all
his glory!
The young man stepped out of his
chariot and bowed deeply, palms folded in a Namaste, to the King, teachers,
nobles, elders and the crowd. He straightened, face tilted at an angle, defiant
eyes scanning the crowd, a small smile playing on his lips. In a resonant voice
he presented himself,
“I am Karna,
pupil of Saint Parashurama. Here, in front of this esteemed audience I
challenge myself to display skills at archery better than Savyasachi Arjuna!”
The crowd went silent, the tension in
the air palpable. People looked each other in disbelief and at this young
nobody of a warrior who claims he can do better than their Prince Arjuna!
“Prove it!” Dronacharya
thundered, eyes blazing in rage at this vagrant boy’s untimely appearance !
Well, prove
Karna did and he was not just better than Arjuna, in fact he was the best Hastinapura
had ever seen! Karna’s each move, each arrow, each pluck, each minute detail –
better and more precise than Arjuna’s. This guy was not an amateur – he was a
class apart. Arjuna’s skills simple paled in front of Karna’s. The Pandavas
looked crestfallen - Arjuna devastated and Bhima brimming with indignation.
The crowd
applauded, cheered and praised. Everyone wanted to know who this extraordinary
warrior was.
“That boy is simply too good! What did
he say his name was?”
“Better than Prince Arjuna”
“Better than all our Princes.”
“Did you notice his featured? Such
noble features! He does look like an elder brother to Arjuna!”
“Who is he? Who are his parents?”
“What? He is a prince from a minor
state of Kalinga?”
“I bet he is of royal blood!”
Karna bowed
again accepting with much humility all the appreciations coming his way. Before
anyone could ask anything came rushing Athiratha, chief of royal stables and
slapped Karna.
“How dare you?
You, you worthless ungrateful wretch! Whom do you think you are to match skills
with our beloved Princes!”
An anguished
Athiratha apologized to my blind father, the king “Forgive me and my son Karna,
Your Highness. Forgive us. I will see it that even his shadow does not fall on
the palace walls. Spare him Oh benevolent King for he is all I have!”
Murmurs
thickened!
“Soothaputra – son of a Sootha – son of
a charioteer!”
“Wasn’t it Athiratha the one who
rescued an infant who had come floating in the river in a wooden box ?”
Kripacharya
stood up silencing the crowd instantaneously. “Hey Sootha, Take your son away
from here. Ask him to learn about horses and stables, the trade of his forefathers.”
Throwing a smoldering look at Karna, Kripacharya continued, “ Boy, don’t bother
picking up weapons anymore. That is what Kshatriya’s are here for. Remember who
you are and act accordingly!”
Those words
struck like a lighting bolt. Voices barely registered. Everything just seemed
to be happening in a blur.
Athiratha
pulling Karna away.
Karna standing
rooted to his spot, head hanging in shame.
Bhima
screaming at the top of his voice, emboldened by Kripacharya’s
Accusations.
“Now a soothaputra wants to match skills with my brother. He should be
whipped!”
All I saw was
a fine warrior. I saw only Karna. I felt pity not for Karna but for the so-called
wise men who couldn’t see merit over social hierarchies. Here was a warrior who
just proved his worth. People claim he cannot be an archer because he was the
son of a charioteer. Which era are we living in?
“Silence!” I
commanded, “Karna is a gifted warrior. His bow and arrows have vouched for the
fact.”
Courtesy : Devdutt Pattnaik |
I continued,
never breaking eye contact with Bhima, “ Father, grant Karna the right to rule
Anga so that no dog can ever again question Karna’s right to be a warrior!”
In the
comfortable knowledge that my father would never disagree to my wishes I walked
up to Karna and straightened his slumped shoulders. Smiling at Karna, I
announced “ I, Suyodhana, Son of King Dhritharastra declare you, Karna, Son of
Athiratha the ruler of State of Anga so that you may rule Anga, her subjects
and all that there is as you deem fit!”
The day ended
prematurely with Kunti Ma fainting in the gallery because of the heat. In a way
that was good as I was about to beat up Bhima. I had done one act of impudence
with the coronation of Karna and beating up my cousins would have made my day!
That day I had
talked for Karna and my voice was heard. Karna had looked at me, his eyes
filled with gratitude and I knew I was the first one to ever have respected him
for who he is. Make no mistakes, I did not feel like some omnipotent God who had showered
blessings on a devotee. I simply felt happy. For the first time I had done
something good for someone and I had not done that to spite Pandavas.
And as a token
of his unpredictability, Karna hugged me. I knew I had found a true friend – a
kindred spirit!
Swinging back
to present day from the trip down the memory lane, Suyodhana stated, “No, I did
not expect anything from you Karna. I simply loved you more than I loved my family
or my own brothers of blood”
“Bhanu, did
you know that Karna is an eternal romantic? Behind this tough veneer is a
tender loving heart. I know you wouldn’t believe me. But that, my love, is the
truth. Look at him blush like a girl!” Suyodhana guffawed.
“Bhanumathi,
do you know who caught the fancy of this wild horse? Who else? The untamed
spirit of Panchal! Drupada putri Panchali! I was confidant Karna would come
home from the swayamavar with Panchali by his side. I was prepared to welcome
her as my own little sister, the wife of my dear friend!
“Karna, I can
read your mind as though it were a book! You loved Panchali. You’ve always
loved her. Pure untainted unrequited love that transcends all barriers."
(to be continued...)
Sunday, August 25, 2013
Suyodhana Uvacha
Vermillion.
Rust. Flame. Garnet. Ruby. Crimson. Wine. Red. Blood red. The horizon is a
calico of shades of red mirroring the war field of Kurukshetra. The Great War
is over and done. The just and the brave have won. After years of suppression
and tyranny the people of Hastinapura will wake to a new morning – a precursor
to a new world, a world of rights and no wrongs. A land of equality, justice
and happiness. A land ruled by sons of Pandu; the Pandavas! Yet this sunset is
far from beautiful, far from enjoyable.
Vultures sweep down in hordes and their
cries fill the otherwise silent war field. The faint distant laments over the
loved ones slowly drift over the lifeless bodies. The stink of carrions hangs
in the listless air. And Suyodhana? “Who Suyodhana?” One might ask brows
knitted in confusions as the brain searches in vain for a face.
Suyodhana, the
first-born of the blind regent king Dhritharashtra of Hastinapura and Queen
Gandhari, Princess of Gandhar! Now we
remember, lips curling in much distaste, about the wayward son of Kurus, scion
of Kauravas!
Born
to a regent king, forever shadowed by his glorious cousins who never even
seemed to pause before they stole the limelight at each opportunity, Suyodhana
would’ve unquestionably made it to the Hall Of Fame for the overlooked princes;
if one existed. Ah! The vagaries of life! Born to riches, brought up amidst pomp
and splendor, Suyodhana earnestly believed in his right to be the crown prince
and future king of Hastinapura! Alas! Life dealt him an unfavorable hand
leaving him to a dastardly death, which was now taking its sweet time to arrive
and embrace him. Suyodhana lay half dead, half awake. Unhinged yet aware, life
force ebbing away, slowly. Hallucinating.
Courtesy:Artist Namboodiri |
“O Bhanumathi,
my beloved Bhanu! Love my life, the light of my eyes that was doused too soon.
How I had rejoiced at the prediction of that vagabond astrologer Brahmin! He
had predicted the death of the puthra-vadu
of Kuruvamsa and the future ruler of Hastinapura before the new moon! I knew my
mercenaries would finish off Princess Draupadi and Prince Dharmaputra! Little
did I know that along with you Bhanu, puthra-vadu
of Kuruvamsa I was going to lose our unborn son on that wretched Amavasi! Our son, Bhanu, could’ve been a
king! A King! Our son Bhanu! Our son! “ Suyodhana let Bhanumati wipe away the
uncontrollable tears he had held for years. He watched Karna sit down at his
feet.
“Oh Karna, is
that you my bosom friend? How resplendent you look in your golden armor. Just
like a radiant sun! ” Suyodhana smiled sadly.
“Karna, you
fought for me, died for me. You were one of the Pandavas yet you chose to be by
my side. You chose me over your family.
If you listened to Krishna and joined the Pandavas, you could’ve been
the king of Hastinapura. You could’ve rule over Bharat with the beautiful daughter
of Drupad by your side and your able counsel of brothers standing around you,
heads bowed in respect, awaiting your orders!
“Karna, Karna,
stop smiling at me like that. And stop shaking your head in playful reproach! I
know you couldn’t, or should I say wouldn’t, have made a different choice. You
fought your brothers for me. The entire world knows that but for your presence
in the Kaurava camp the 18-day war would’ve ended in 8 days. No, for me the war
would’ve been over even before it started if you had left me to join the
Pandavas!
Suyodhana
laughed out aloud coughing up spittle of blood, “ Oh Karna, you are one of a
kind I must say. To stand by a friend when the entire world divided their
allegiances based on obligations and Dharma, you chose me because I was your
friend. When kings and warriors fought for Hastinapura you alone fought for
this Suyodhana!“
Shaking his
head, Suyodhana continued, “ Friendship over bloodlines! Friendship over
Dharma! Friendship over every single dictate of the world! These noble follies
to this wretched world, my friend, are singularly your contributions! You are
the first one in the history of time to commit them and undoubtedly the last
one too! ”
“Bhanu, do you
remember the day of our graduation from Guru Dronacharya’s academy? Off course
you don’t! I didn’t even know of your existence then. Surely you remember the
stories I have told you about out Gurukul days and the graduation ceremony.”
Suyodhana
closed his eyes reminiscing, blood rushing to his pale face at the memory of
his beloved friend’s public humiliation!
Sunday, April 21, 2013
The Oonjal Kattil
CREEEAK.
CREEEAK. CREEEAK.
SILENCE.
CREEEAK.
CREEEAK. CREEEAK.
SILENCE.
The
half-awake instant-response-to-stimuli-mother in me tensed and jolted the other sleepy
half of the mother in me. Together we checked the time. 2:13 AM. Blink blink.
“By God! What are the kids doing at this time of the night in the family room?”
The
strict disciplinarian in me bristles while the lets-have-some-fun person in me
tells me to turn over and sleep. Being a mother is not easy. You simply cannot
take the easy way out, ever!
CREEEAK.
CREEEAK. CREEEAK.
SILENCE.
CREEEAK.
CREEEAK. CREEEAK.
SILENCE.
That
creaky sound has been part of my existence since infancy. It comes from the Oonjal kattil which hangs in the family
room. This swinging bed fashioned out of a single Burmese teak hangs from brass
chains from the roof. My mother inherited it from her mother and I would
hopefully pass this to future generations (Disclaimer:
If and only if the two monkeys I bore reach adulthood without swinging it to
pieces!). This Oonjal kattil is
the centre of all the fun, laughter and fights in our family. And if it’s creaking
at 2 AM; it can only be the kids!
I
tiptoed to the family room. I have to catch them red handed. Little monkeys,
here I come.
The
room was pitch dark and unusually silent. Did I imagine all this? Ha, may be
they are hiding in the shadows hoping to get away from wrath.
Trapped monster, that’s what
you are!
Amma of this home, that’s who I
am!
CLICK!
I switched on the lights to reveal an empty room! Everything in its place,
just
the way I left it before I retired for the night. Cushions in place, remotes on
the shelf, magazines and newspapers on the rack, the heavy layered curtains
drawn and Mini kutty’s grinning rag doll propped proprietarily on the Oonjal Kattil.
Sigh!
I dragged myself to bed disappointed with my late night adventure and fell in
to a deep slumber.
Even
in the depths of my sleep something disturbed me .Something obscure, something
sinister; something vaguely familiar yet totally strange. Like the misplaced grin
on the face of that doll. Tomorrow, first thing in the morning, I’ll throw that
stupid piece of rag in the dumpster. Tomorrow.
*****************************************
A
sliver of pale moonlight steals in through the curtains lighting up the cheeky grin
on the doll’s face.
From the dark shadows emerge a pair of silhouettes. Their shadows unnaturally long as
they silently climb over the Oonjal
Kattil and sit with the rag doll between them.
A grey
cloud passes over the bright moon drowning the family room in inky black
darkness.
CREEEAK.
CREEEAK. CREEEAK.
SILENCE.
CREEEAK.
CREEEAK. CREEEAK.
SILENCE.
Tuesday, April 16, 2013
The Warrior Princess Of Thiru Kochi
Dawn
“Wooshie woowie wwoooshh shooww”
(Stop fighting with Ma over the sparky-thingy Rosie! Ma would send you off to your room!)
(Girl, Stop playing Wimbledon matches and go pray for a while. Running around the garden to give people a chance to pass opinions on her !)
I opened my eyes to smile at her beaming face. She smiled back, her large black eyes reflecting my dimpled face. Isn’t it easy to love waking up in the mornings? I simply love waking up to her smiles.
Suddenly her face clouded. At first blood drained from her face, then it turned pink with anguish and then a bright red with an uncontrollable fury of a wounded she-wolf.
“They’ve attacked again, in the dark of the night, against all our defences .They’ve hurt my child again! I will kill them all. One by one!” She hissed as he squeezed my ankles where the wound had reddened into a terrible rash.
Little did I know that I would have to wait the entire morning and afternoon to watch my mother execute her brutal attack!
Evening
Every evening I sit, washed, powdered, clothed and fed, snuggling contently against my great-granny (GG). GG’s lips move in a silent prayer whilst her wrinkly leathery bony fingers drum a lost rhythm on my plump thighs. Our eyes meet every now and then. I smile at her baring my toothless gums; she flashes her squirrelly-two-toothed smile at me. I giggle and snuggle closer to her burying myself in the familiar smells of clean starched cotton and cuticura talc. We both sit content, watching the sky turn from a golden yellow to deep orange to a brilliant red and in the end into a star spangled midnight blue blanket.
This is what we do, the old matriarch and the little me, every evening, day after day. Today we are watching a different show. My mother’s battle against my tormentors! Let the show begin!
Dusk
Ma stands in the middle of our garden armed with her orange rimmed electric bat (akin to Goddess Shakti’s Trishul but has an uncanny resemblance to a tennis racquet with electricity pulsing through the cords). It looks harmless but can deliver fatal blows. Sparks fly each time one of them falls. Ma is running up and down the garden paths like a crazed all-court tennis player swinging her weapon in precise backhand and applaud-worthy forehand strokes. I have to give her the credit for changing her tactics every now and then.
She sweeps over the evergreen boxwood hedges ambushing a few guerrillas. She engages our faithful canine, Rosie, as a bait to lure the enemy soldiers into the line of fire err line of bat. No offence meant Rosie, you are pretty crazy yourself.“Wooshie woowie wwoooshh shooww”
(Stop fighting with Ma over the sparky-thingy Rosie! Ma would send you off to your room!)
Ma did exactly what I told Rosie. After getting royally shouted at for her indiscipline and stupidity, Rosie, now sits by our side complaining in whimpers about the injustice meted out to her.
“Wooshie woo wyu wooo!”
(I told you so Rosie! GG stop sshh-sshing me!)
In spite of her failure-of-a-partner (read Rosie), a content Ma is about to retreat to the safety of our heavily netted home. Just then a lone enemy courses by her, humming a taunting tune in her ear. Ma stiffens forehead crinkled in intense concentration. She shifts her weight positioning her feet in a defensive stance each fibre in body alive and alert.
The lone attacker flies past her, high above her head. Ma jumps off the ground, her right arm swinging a beautiful arc. Craaackkleee! The blood sucker is down. Ma does a beautiful swirl in mid air, her oiled long plaits snaking around her and lands gracefully on her feet with her lips curved into the most beautiful crooked smile I’ve ever seen.
(Ma says I have a lot more to see and learn. For me Ma remains the best thing that happened to me)
She looks resplendent in the last lights of the day.
My mother, my protector, my warrior princess!
I clap hands happily and coo energetically.
Just then Ammamma comes along, “Di, thrisandhyakku Wimbledon match kalikandu poyi erunnu namam chellan nokku! Naatukare kondu oronnu parayippikan muttathu odi kalikka pennu!”(Girl, Stop playing Wimbledon matches and go pray for a while. Running around the garden to give people a chance to pass opinions on her !)
P:S: I am on vacation in Kochi . I accept with much grace the overcrowding of my home town, traffic blocks and power cuts (timely and untimely). Mosquitoes – Good Lord. God Save Kochi and her suburbs.
It so happened that after much mosquito hunting on an evening, Amma and I retired for the night. I got up at around 3 AM in the morning half asleep announcing the attack of mosquitoes on me and promptly fell back to an itchy-scratchy sleep. Amma woke up. Battled the mosquitoes and couldn’t sleep any more. This one is for you Amma, my warrior princess!
Sunday, February 17, 2013
Review:The Book Thief by Markus Zusak
The Book Thief by Markus Zusak
My rating: 5 of 5 stars
When you want to pull out those people from the pages of a book and feel that need to keep them safe till end of world war,II you know one thing for sure - (1)You are reading an awesome book (2)Every single word the author penned has found it's mark.
Let me say without any doubts that "The Book Thief" by Markus Zusak is one of the very engrossing books I've read in the past afew years.It made me laugh,it made me think and it made me cry bitter tears in the end.Real,salty tears soaking into my pillows,if you insist on knowing.
Enough about me and how I felt about the book or rather how the book made me feel!
"The Book Thief" takes you on a journey to the life of Liesel,her foster parents,Rudy-her-best-friend and the jew she befriends,to Himmel Street ,to the life of it's residents,to Munich , to Hitler's Germany,to a world at war.
Narrated by death himself with a whiff of dark humour,against the backdrop of world war II and Nazi Germany,it is the story of Liesel Meminger.Of innocent people torn apart in the name of a war.
It is the story of the jew Max Vandenburg. Of people that perished in the name of religion.
Of Hans and Rosa Hubermann. Of extraordinary people with hearts of gold, who wave feeble flags of humanity in the face of cruel times.
Of Rudy Steiner.Of friends who make those cruel times survivable.
Of Ilsa Hermann.Of people who live in memories and at times open their life and book shelf willingly to a certain book thief.
As readers we live their lives , we watch Liesel and Rudy become best friends. We dread the worst as Hubermann’s hide a Jew in their basement. And against hope wish that bombs don’t fall on Himmel street.
It is an experience you will not regret.And never once in my life have I read “Death” to be so real and pragmatic.
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My rating: 5 of 5 stars
When you want to pull out those people from the pages of a book and feel that need to keep them safe till end of world war,II you know one thing for sure - (1)You are reading an awesome book (2)Every single word the author penned has found it's mark.
Let me say without any doubts that "The Book Thief" by Markus Zusak is one of the very engrossing books I've read in the past afew years.It made me laugh,it made me think and it made me cry bitter tears in the end.Real,salty tears soaking into my pillows,if you insist on knowing.
Enough about me and how I felt about the book or rather how the book made me feel!
"The Book Thief" takes you on a journey to the life of Liesel,her foster parents,Rudy-her-best-friend and the jew she befriends,to Himmel Street ,to the life of it's residents,to Munich , to Hitler's Germany,to a world at war.
Narrated by death himself with a whiff of dark humour,against the backdrop of world war II and Nazi Germany,it is the story of Liesel Meminger.Of innocent people torn apart in the name of a war.
It is the story of the jew Max Vandenburg. Of people that perished in the name of religion.
Of Hans and Rosa Hubermann. Of extraordinary people with hearts of gold, who wave feeble flags of humanity in the face of cruel times.
Of Rudy Steiner.Of friends who make those cruel times survivable.
Of Ilsa Hermann.Of people who live in memories and at times open their life and book shelf willingly to a certain book thief.
As readers we live their lives , we watch Liesel and Rudy become best friends. We dread the worst as Hubermann’s hide a Jew in their basement. And against hope wish that bombs don’t fall on Himmel street.
It is an experience you will not regret.And never once in my life have I read “Death” to be so real and pragmatic.
View all my reviews
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